Sometimes we find ourselves grieving but the person still walks the earth. It could be an ex lover, a friend or a family member.
I have felt this grief. Something happened. Something I have no control over. I can’t change the past. I can’t change the decisions made. I can’t change the outcomes. I don’t own a Dolorian for time travel. The pain I feel in my heart is strong. That tearing your heart into pieces feeling.
At times it is so intense I want to spew. At times I am so angry I lash out at other loved ones (sorry dear, kind people). When talking about this my blood boils. I consume too much alcohol thinking about it. I shout. I swear. I have let it effect me.
The time has come. I must let it go. I accept we can never be the same. I accept the things I cannot change.
But I will never stop remembering the good times, because they were good and there have been many. You have changed our future, but you can never take our past away.
Memories cannot be erased. Time can change things but we cannot change the things which happen over time.
I release myself. I am free.